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ramble about vidya
Jul. 11th, 2023 05:00 am bibdeo games.
ok honestly i just have nothing to do and i need something to do. i want to read ao3 fic but it's down rn. i'm writing part 2 to a fic i want to write a part 2 to... but i don't know if i'll publish it? but i want to get the consensus of what this thing is talked about as in fanon and to do that. i need ao3. so i'm going to talk about video games for a hot second instead.
i loooove video games but i feel like i'm exhausting the ones i want to play. like i LOOOOVE jrpgs but after playing almost every final fantasy and then branching out from there... like, what am i to do now? i want there to be more retro jrpgs for me to play. kingdom hearts is the next one on my list to play - OH, BUT I DON'T HAVE MY COMPUTER YET BECAUSE MY CARD GOT CHARGED AS FRAUD. I CALLED MY BANK AND I HEAR THE LADY GO "-OH, UHHH, HANG ON... UH... I THINK I CANCELLED YOUR CARD?" AND I SAID "OH NO!" INSTEAD OF "BITCH WHAT THE FUCK!" i had a nice cry after though. so kingdom hearts is on hold until i can get my card from the bank in a couple hours and then buy the laptop and have it shipped to me and then KH.
but i've been trying to branch out to other games too. like... it's not going very well i think. i tried playing terranigma for the snes which is quite fun actually! but my computer is overheating like hell. i just need a new computer y'all. but i'm going to try to play rune factory 4 on the 3ds. i'm not a fan of "life sims" - like animal crossing new leaf i liked because my best friend and i have played it for years together but like. i'm impatient for the real-time stuff and then i've never played stardew valley or anything like that but it just seems so... i don't know. something about it irks me. but rune factory i think i might be able to play. i don't mind gameplay loops but it just depends on the gameplay loop. like etrian odyssey i liked and obviously i have spent thousands of hours in jrpgs pressing buttons i like that kind of gameplay loop. but i don't want to spend my time FARMING in a game. but with rune factory i will!!!
there's one game published by the same company that did rune factory and the game is called "lord of magna: maiden heaven". it's tropey as hell but i miss it so much. i loved playing it but i lost the cartridge a long while ago :/ my brother bought it for christmas for me (even if i wanted project mirai DX smh) and gosh. it's not a very good story but it did awaken me to some things. but not many things i admit online so it's ok.
i just wish i had more time to game and a better computer that didn't implode trying to do anything. like i love video games sooo much. but i just feel like i can't sink a week into a 60+ hour long journey like i used to be able to. i have to take breaks. i think the last time i completed a game in a short amount of time was xbc3 in like... 80 hours? in the span of 2 1/2 weeks? something like that. but i was doing tons of side content too so i don't know. i just wish i could go back in time and play ffix and revel in the beauty of it, play ffv without knowing what happens and LMAOing at exdeath and ghido, go back in time and play pokemon emerald for the first time pirating off of some sketchy website. now that i think about it pokemon emerald was probably the first game i completed. i guess i have pokemon to thank for making me who i am because i met all of my friends through pokemon who introduced me to other jrpgs and games i enjoy. so i don't know.
i think my favorite game of all time is kid icarus: uprising. it's such a good game. it's funny and i always smile at the quips. plus the gameplay is fire. i also like fe15. speaking of fire emblem remakes though i don't think i would want a remake of fe4. if i have to be honest it's because i don't like the fans of 3 houses and i don't want the little kids to circlejerk about fe4 the same way. also the incest would probably be a no-no in north america but hey. who knows. i also wish that fire emblem stopped it with the insert-protags. the only one i like is kris because they're both cute. i don't like robin i don't like corrin i don't like byleth i don't like alear!!!!!!!! QUIT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN'T I JUST HAVE MY BLUE-HAIRED LORD AND NOT SOME OMNIPOTENT AMNESIAC WITH PLOT ARMOR?!? I'M SO SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!! but kris can stay specifically female kris with the wrys haircut because she :) jkjk. but for real. i would want an fe4 remake to have an annoying as hell insert or NOTHING!!! I DON'T WANT IT REMADE!!! REMAKE FE6 THAT GAME COULD USE IT!!!! REMAKE FE6!!!!! I NEED ROY AND ALL OF MY OTHER FAVS LIKE LALUM AND CATH AND PERCEVAL <3 AND RUTGEERRRRR AND KLEIN AND ZEPHIEL AND MURDOCK AND SAUL AND BRUNYA AND THANY AND ALL OF THEM OK!?!? OK!!!!!!!!!!
i wish i could reexperience final fantasy again. now that i'm thinking about it. i wish i could play ffiv again and squeal and giggle at everything kain highwind does. i wish i could replay dissidia 012 and see all of those cutscenes and lose myself in the battles... hours and hours and hours of playing... i need like 2 more achievements before i've 100%'d the game but. laptop shite. you surely understand!!! i don't cry at video games but i did shed a tear or two during ffix. but i cried at nier automata not because it was sad but that whole section of 2B glitching pissed me off so greatly and i kept dying and running out of time. hate that game because of it. but i'll play nier replicant when i get the chance probably. but after KH.... because i want to play KH first and get in on what y'all are talking about with the. the twenty blond guys. from what little i know i like ienzo... if that's his name. the doctor-lookin' guy? it's cause he's a doctor is why i like him.
ok honestly i just have nothing to do and i need something to do. i want to read ao3 fic but it's down rn. i'm writing part 2 to a fic i want to write a part 2 to... but i don't know if i'll publish it? but i want to get the consensus of what this thing is talked about as in fanon and to do that. i need ao3. so i'm going to talk about video games for a hot second instead.
i loooove video games but i feel like i'm exhausting the ones i want to play. like i LOOOOVE jrpgs but after playing almost every final fantasy and then branching out from there... like, what am i to do now? i want there to be more retro jrpgs for me to play. kingdom hearts is the next one on my list to play - OH, BUT I DON'T HAVE MY COMPUTER YET BECAUSE MY CARD GOT CHARGED AS FRAUD. I CALLED MY BANK AND I HEAR THE LADY GO "-OH, UHHH, HANG ON... UH... I THINK I CANCELLED YOUR CARD?" AND I SAID "OH NO!" INSTEAD OF "BITCH WHAT THE FUCK!" i had a nice cry after though. so kingdom hearts is on hold until i can get my card from the bank in a couple hours and then buy the laptop and have it shipped to me and then KH.
but i've been trying to branch out to other games too. like... it's not going very well i think. i tried playing terranigma for the snes which is quite fun actually! but my computer is overheating like hell. i just need a new computer y'all. but i'm going to try to play rune factory 4 on the 3ds. i'm not a fan of "life sims" - like animal crossing new leaf i liked because my best friend and i have played it for years together but like. i'm impatient for the real-time stuff and then i've never played stardew valley or anything like that but it just seems so... i don't know. something about it irks me. but rune factory i think i might be able to play. i don't mind gameplay loops but it just depends on the gameplay loop. like etrian odyssey i liked and obviously i have spent thousands of hours in jrpgs pressing buttons i like that kind of gameplay loop. but i don't want to spend my time FARMING in a game. but with rune factory i will!!!
there's one game published by the same company that did rune factory and the game is called "lord of magna: maiden heaven". it's tropey as hell but i miss it so much. i loved playing it but i lost the cartridge a long while ago :/ my brother bought it for christmas for me (even if i wanted project mirai DX smh) and gosh. it's not a very good story but it did awaken me to some things. but not many things i admit online so it's ok.
i just wish i had more time to game and a better computer that didn't implode trying to do anything. like i love video games sooo much. but i just feel like i can't sink a week into a 60+ hour long journey like i used to be able to. i have to take breaks. i think the last time i completed a game in a short amount of time was xbc3 in like... 80 hours? in the span of 2 1/2 weeks? something like that. but i was doing tons of side content too so i don't know. i just wish i could go back in time and play ffix and revel in the beauty of it, play ffv without knowing what happens and LMAOing at exdeath and ghido, go back in time and play pokemon emerald for the first time pirating off of some sketchy website. now that i think about it pokemon emerald was probably the first game i completed. i guess i have pokemon to thank for making me who i am because i met all of my friends through pokemon who introduced me to other jrpgs and games i enjoy. so i don't know.
i think my favorite game of all time is kid icarus: uprising. it's such a good game. it's funny and i always smile at the quips. plus the gameplay is fire. i also like fe15. speaking of fire emblem remakes though i don't think i would want a remake of fe4. if i have to be honest it's because i don't like the fans of 3 houses and i don't want the little kids to circlejerk about fe4 the same way. also the incest would probably be a no-no in north america but hey. who knows. i also wish that fire emblem stopped it with the insert-protags. the only one i like is kris because they're both cute. i don't like robin i don't like corrin i don't like byleth i don't like alear!!!!!!!! QUIT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAN'T I JUST HAVE MY BLUE-HAIRED LORD AND NOT SOME OMNIPOTENT AMNESIAC WITH PLOT ARMOR?!? I'M SO SICK OF IT!!!!!!!!! but kris can stay specifically female kris with the wrys haircut because she :) jkjk. but for real. i would want an fe4 remake to have an annoying as hell insert or NOTHING!!! I DON'T WANT IT REMADE!!! REMAKE FE6 THAT GAME COULD USE IT!!!! REMAKE FE6!!!!! I NEED ROY AND ALL OF MY OTHER FAVS LIKE LALUM AND CATH AND PERCEVAL <3 AND RUTGEERRRRR AND KLEIN AND ZEPHIEL AND MURDOCK AND SAUL AND BRUNYA AND THANY AND ALL OF THEM OK!?!? OK!!!!!!!!!!
i wish i could reexperience final fantasy again. now that i'm thinking about it. i wish i could play ffiv again and squeal and giggle at everything kain highwind does. i wish i could replay dissidia 012 and see all of those cutscenes and lose myself in the battles... hours and hours and hours of playing... i need like 2 more achievements before i've 100%'d the game but. laptop shite. you surely understand!!! i don't cry at video games but i did shed a tear or two during ffix. but i cried at nier automata not because it was sad but that whole section of 2B glitching pissed me off so greatly and i kept dying and running out of time. hate that game because of it. but i'll play nier replicant when i get the chance probably. but after KH.... because i want to play KH first and get in on what y'all are talking about with the. the twenty blond guys. from what little i know i like ienzo... if that's his name. the doctor-lookin' guy? it's cause he's a doctor is why i like him.
